Ah, yes. I've finally moved on--to a newer blog, that is.

http://bluekingdom.blogdrive.com has been with me through a lot of ups and downs in life. Most of my precious Senior Year and College Freshman memories are found in here. As I look back at the entries I have written down since I was a fourth year high school student, I cannot help but think back of all the times I have laughed, cried, loved, hurt, went crazy, got stressed out, laughed, and cried some more. My fondest memories from my transition to a college student from a high school senior will always be remembered with every flip through the pages of my blog--my life, my story. All my laughter and tears, heartache and pains, trials and tribulations, joys and achievements...I leave them all behind.

With the start of the new year, I start a new life.
I will forgive, but never will I forget.
I will love, but even if it hurts
I will love completely.

Here in my heart you'll find teardrops that glisten
If only you had been there, for once, just to listen
But sometimes you forget or get caught up with so many things
That you begin to lose touch of almost everything
So here I am, embarking on a new journey
All alone? Who knows? Just you wait and see
If you want to come along this ride with me
Like what I've done, drop your baggages, and set yourself free.

I know you love me.
But do I love you?

I woke up this morning with a silly grin on my face. One more day and it's gonna be Christmas! One more day and I'll be all dolled up. haha (Bah Humbug, perhaps?) It's beginning to look and feel like Christmas. Spread the lurve. haha

Don't you just hate it when
I'm like this little speck of sunshine?

...to a new blog site, that is. haha  I just realized how cramp this blog has become(I've got so much memories in here since I've been blogging in this blog since May 2004 and I realized that I can't bookmark all my entries and entries to come). This blog's getting too crowded (not to mention publicized). I'll let you guys know when I've finally decided to move out and move on to a new blog with the arrival of a new year.

I will miss this blog.
And I will miss you guys, too.
But I haven't moved out--yet.

Stay tuned. I'll let you know when I've packed my bags and moved to a new blog at the start of the new year. Prepare to change your links, my dear friends!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

With lots of love,
A.L.

The world is a wondeful place
Even through the ups and downs
Life is just sweet
And I love you 
Don't you just love Christmas?

Pasko na. Bakit ang emo pa ng mga kantang nasa MyX HitChart? Number one pa ang Hale.

Natapos na ang lahat 
nandito pa rin ako 
hetong nakatulala 
sa mundo 

hindi mo maiisip 
hindi mo makikita 
ang mga pangarap ko 
para sa iyo 

oh.. 
hindi ko maisip 
kung wala ka 
oh.. 
sa buhay ko 

nariyan ka pa ba 
hindi ka na matanaw 
kung merong madadaanang 
pasulong 

sundan mo ang paghimig na lulan 
na aking pinagtanto 
sundan mo ang paghimig ko 

-"Kung Wala Ka" lyrics by Hale  

Ang pathetic ko...
Dapat gumagawa na ako ng En at Lit project namin.
Kaso lang nanonood ako ng MyX.
Pathetic pero ayos lang.
Masaya maging pathetic--diba MM at Nix?

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Lit14 analysis report on this:

        SHE dwelt among the untrodden ways
            Beside the springs of Dove,
          A Maid whom there were none to praise
            And very few to love:

          A violet by a mossy stone
            Half hidden from the eye!
          --Fair as a star, when only one
            Is shining in the sky.

          She lived unknown, and few could know
            When Lucy ceased to be;                                   
          But she is in her grave, and, oh,
            The difference to me!

-"She Dwelt Among the Untrodden Ways" by William Wordsworth

Nice...may En12 research paper pa ako at Lit14 paper on Elizabethan/Renaissance women. Merry Christmas.

Things are looking up.
Thank you Lord for a wonderful life.
Thank you to my family...you guys rawk!
Thank you Nix for being the bestest best bud in the universe
Thank you Ingga for being my twinnie (we're hot! XD)
Thank you Bea for all the pep talks (super Bea to the rescue! ahehehe)
Thank you Emoy for bearing with my pathetic-ness (aylabsyu my plehm)
Thank you Maika for loving me forever and ever and ever (lilo!)
Thank you Kei for loving me too! (pooh!)
Thank you Crisgee and Marc--you da men! (Statistic?)
Thank you Nix and Ryan for helping me with my Calc HW#2
Thank you KatD for letting me copy your Calc HW#1 (sankyuuu!!)
Thank you Sir Timmy Teng for making me pass my Calc LT#2 (Sir! You rock!)
Thank you Charles for making us the Magic Sing champs (No, We ROCK!)
Thank you blockmates for all the presents, hugs, and love (Awww...)
Thank you April and Nash for all your infectious emo moments (Kanta tayo ng "Iris"--it's my fave emo song since the beginning of time)
Thank you 4-Solidarity for my HS memories--I miss you! (Tagal ko na kayong di nakikita)
Thank you to Kev, Hilla, Margie, Pat, and my taek buddies for making Taek fun and making me miss it even more (Hayaaaaahhhh!!!)
Thank you Sir Aris, Sir Kakoi, Dr. Lagunzad, Dr. Queena for being awesome profs (Sipsip kuno)
Thank you everyone!
I'm sorry if I forgot to mention you. I'm just too lazy to blog.
Probably edit in the future. Busy chatting with my *drunk* twin who's finishing the leftovers from yday. haha

CELEBRATE WITH ME!!! I PASSED MY CALC TEST!!!
Merry Christmas!

Tama na ang drama
I've learned to forgive and forget
After all, it's Christmas
I feel so much better.

I don't want to jump into conclusions
I want to talk to you first and get the facts straight before making a judgment call.

Did you or did you not lie to me?
Please be honest.
So much for surprises this Christmas
I don't know if I can take another shocker
My poor fragile heart is not ready for this
I'm falling into pieces as the year ends.

I need a hug and a shock absorber.
I can't think straight.

Merry Christmas to me

You plan ahead, and are interested in beauty, design, outward appearance, and symmetry.
You are a shy, idealistic person who does not find it easy to have relationships, especially intimate ones.
You are affectionate, passionate, expressive, and future-oriented.
You are not very reserved, impatient, self-confident and fond of action.
You enjoy life in your own way and do not depend on the opinions of others.
What does your handwriting say about YOU? 

Why do I feel so sucky
When my Christmas wish came true?
Maybe MM was right
What kind of a wish was that?

I'm still in shock about what happened. Let's just say that that was certainly a weird way to end the year--with a BANG. Seriously speaking, yesterday, I felt like someone shot me with a bullet and trampled all over me (Dramatic, ano?), but I really hope that I'll live. Your friendship is certainly worth saving. I don't want to ruin your Christmas after realizing that maybe I've already ruined mine.

It just hurts real bad
I'm tired of pretending
I don't wanna pretend
Somehow, someday
I'll live.

Started noon with a Commonwealth-Fairview joyride adventure with MM and company. It's been a long, long time since I last passed by Fairview/Commonwealth. Thank you Uana for showing us that UP is but a short distance away from Ever Gotesco (ano ulit sabi ni Charles about Ever?). hahaha Idol kita Uanababes! :P

Had our block Christmas party at Uana's today. It was super fun. Thank you blockmates for all the gifts, the hugs, the love, and the support. You guys rock! Aylabsyu all. Even though you guys don't really know what I'm going through, you helped uplift my spirits and made me feel Christmassy in some sort of twisted way. :D Magic Sing does wonders to lift your spirits. We spent the whole afternoon eating and singing (haha parang beerhouse daw sabi ni Bobby) to novelty and classic songs (Raymond, "As Long As You Love Me" was dedicated to you from me...haha BSB!!!)  Oh, and Charles and I scored a 100 points whilst "Magic Sing-ing" to "Crazy For You." Charles, we RAWKED. We're the champions of "Magic Sing"! Labo...

I had this chat with two of my good friends this morning (right after my blogging spree at the complab). They made me realize so many things, and opened my eyes to the sad reality that sometimes though friends may not necessarily be tactful enough and can unintentionally hurt you, I still have to accept them for who they are because they are my friends and I love them (not to mention that I'm a "martyr" but I hate being one :c). I know that during our conversations words like "backstab", "tactless", "deceived", "hurt", and the like kept coming out from your mouths to console me and point out that it's not my fault that I feel like a huge knife had been plunged into my chest. It just hurts knowing that I'm a poor judge of character. So much for my goal to try to be more trustworthy to people...

Tama na ang drama.
Kailangan ko ng Christmas spirit.
Btw, I passed my Math LT. Yay!
Celebrate with me! :P

I made that promise to you long ago
That no matter what happens, I'll always be there for you
THIS is a "no matter what happens" scenario
I just want you to know that I still trust and love you
You're still worth the friendship we shared
And nothing could ever change that
Nothing...even when I'm falling into pieces.

Block party at Uana's later on. Currently in the Rizal Comp Lab whilst waiting for the rest of my blockies while they still have classes. After this, we're going to Uana's. Weee... ^u^  I am BORED. What'll I do for two weeks???

Dear Santa, please spice up my Christmas holiday and give me a good surprise.  I have been a really really really good girl this year! Please and thank you!

Dear Baby,

I have something for you. Hope to see you later!

Love,
Mommy

I wish to ask of you just one thing
To care of his heart, that would mean everything
You see he has this fragile heart
He's been crashed and burned from the very start.

Dear friend, you hold someone most dear
(A dear bestest friend, just to make things clear)
Love him forever, and hold him close
Treasure him forever, like the thing you loved the most.

Take good care of his heart, that is all I ask
Though there may be ups and downs, it's a bearable task.
I am deathly afraid of his heart breaking into pieces
Promise me that you'll shower him with hugs and kisses.

Dear friend, you see, he is special to me
And it would mean the world to me if you could fill his heart with glee
Don't let him wander alone in a path filled with darkness
Don't lead him astray or fill his heart with sadness.

When he's sad put a smile on his face
When he's lonely, please do give him an embrace
When he's sick, give him something yummy to eat
When he's all hyper, be hyper--go with the beat.

Just promise me that you'll love him forever
And that you would leave him never.
This is all I ask, a simple request to a friend
I'm wishing you guys the best, until the very end.