Saturday, July 23, 2005

Finding Happiness
A wise friend once told me,

"if you believe on something
so much with whole devotion
and conviction
it will become true for you
so here
believe nothing is going wrong
find stupid things to laugh about
do stupid things if you can't find any
and when people laugh
laugh with them
then you'll find that it is easier to take life easy"


I'm sticking to your advice and putting it at heart.
Thanks. >:D< You know who you are.

Was in a sorta depressed mood yesterday. I bombed my math test. I wasn't also able to attend the Celadon GA so I kinda felt bad about it. To make matters worse, my ES groupmates dd not send me their reports so I was soo frustrated. I'm thinking of quitting my ES group. Actually, I kinda feel bad for one member of the group because he really helps me out, but the rest..ewan ko na ba.
*sigh* Kev, thanks for offering me to join your group, but no thanks. You're already 5 in the group and hassle talaga sa inyo yun if sasama ako. If things keep on going like this (groupmates failing to comply, submitting one-liner "reports" during the last minute, etc.) I AM SERIOUSLY QUITTING THE GROUP. Margie, I'm feeling the same feeling you have in your NatSci Lab group...

Who knew that a little YM chat with my two "diaries"-slash-psychiatrists (HS and College) and some doodling via YM could help relieve frustration and make me slightly SABAW-ed? haha Thanks guys!

We're gonna watch this Filipino play later on. Whoooppeeee...(and I was being sarcastic)


EMPATHY

Admittedly, I have this weird gift of empathy. I dunno..it's just that I can sense when someone feels pain deep inside but does not show it and in that same manner, I feel for that friend. In a weird way, I kinda feel that pain, too. I'm the type of person who'll cry with you when you cry, who'll laugh with you when you laugh..I dunno..malabo lang talaga akong tao.

Take for instance, last night. I had this weird dream about a certain friend who was going through a lot of probs. In my dream, this certain friend was really depressed and that certain friend was on the verge of tears. I felt so helpless--I wanted to help ease that certain friend's pain, I wanted that certain friend to be happy. I couldn't do anything but hug that certain friend tightly, hoping that somehow, I could ease that certain friend's pain. I've been having that dream a lot lately. It keeps on repeating. I dunno..my theory is that maybe that certain friend is trying to call out for help via ESP and Dreams? Ewan.

I'm a "feeling" person. I get too involved and empathize too much with the people I care about. No wonder I'm so depressed. I get depressed when one of my friends is depressed.


A novel was written on Saturday, July 23, 2005 at 11:35 am


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