Sabaw ako ngayon.

er..yes. We finally had our LSGO workshop yesterday. It was fun and boring at the same time. The lectures were kinda boring, but R3 was well, being R3. We added some spice to the boring GDs. ahaha (lysch and uana: remember *toot*??) Fun fun fun. Speaking of fun, I think Ehmers and I didn't quite listen intently to the lectures. We were busy doodling stuff on her notebook and on mine. Doodled oodles of drawings and "panget" stuff. ahahahaha :D That's what you get when you're partially in a sabaw mood. haha Oh, and our group (Me, MM, Von and Jo) won in the teamwork GD. Yay! It was purely luck--promise. haha

In our LSGO, I learrned that I was ISFJ. Back in high school I was a ESTP (I think), so it made me realize that I have changed a lot since high school. I guess that nowadays, I don't open up much to people. In fact, I think only one AdMU person/friend truly knows who I am, and what my fears and anxieties are in life. Maybe it's because I feel that I'm not yet ready to open up to people and that I feel comfortable opening up to this certain someone. Nevertheless, I'm trying to do my best to open up myself to my circle of friends, like what I did back in high school. I'm not really an introvert, but somehow I can feel that I'm an introvert and extrovert depending on my given situation.

In our LSGO, I learned that I'm friendly, talkative at times, reserved, I bottle up emotions, need privacy, reflect on something then act, I give depth to life, live in the present, read instructions first before doing anything else, takes things one step at a time, decide with my heart, go by personal convictions, good at understanding people, fuzzy-minded (read: malabong tao haha), emotional, decisive, likes things to be planned and orderly, likes to control own life, and plans things in advance. haha :P What a personality! ahahahaha


I had another weird dream last night. I know that most of you who are reading this are probably bored with my dream blog entries. Hey, who can blame me for remembering my dreams in detail? Anyway, last night I dreamt about Jeff. Apparently, he was in a different ES section and he had a terror teacher so he pretended he was part of our class in order to avoid his terror teacher. He moved his plant pot in the greenhouse near our plants and told his teacher that he was part of ES12-C and was not in her class. For some strange reason, even though the teacher knew that he was lying, she let it pass. With that, Jeff became my classmate in ES. Labo. I've noticed that these days, I've been having loads of dreams involving my ES classmates. ahahahaha :D

Daily Horoscope:
"You're feeling spontaneous, generous and willing to extend a hand to anyone who needs it. That goes double for the one you love, who'll be able to get you to do their bidding with just one little glance.

Get set to charm the heck out of everybody you meet. Who could possibly resist you?

When you're feeling this positive, it's easy to see how those good feelings might be contagious. Go ahead and spend some time with the people you love. Make them laugh, pass out a whole bunch of hugs and be sure that they all understand that you'd do anything to make them feel good now. Oh, and don't be surprised if the person you love most teases you into doing their bidding -- not that you'll mind, of course. In all, it's going to be a romantic, happy day."

-->Quite true, quite true. I am in a SUPERB mood today. It's probably because I'm no longer irked with a certain someone and that life's pretty peachy at the mo.

Yes, I am sane enough to wake up this early on a weekend.

We're having our LSGO workshop later on. Fun. (I was being sarcastic)


I woke up today with probably the weirdest dream EVER (yes, I think it tops my other weird dream). This involved me, Nix (not Nixie--the guy, not the girl), MM, Dr. Queena Lee-Chua, and my father.


Apparently, it was the middle of the night when my Math teacher, Dr. Queena Lee-Chua asked me to run some errands for her (I was the class beadle). She told me she needed to park her car somewhere so I was to open the gate for her (?). Unfortunately, the place were she needed to park the car was VERY far from the SEC A building. In fact, I think it was outside the campus. So here I was walking on foot in the middle of the night when suddenly I fell into some sort of hole where there was a maze. I was really worried because I was pressing for time, so I made it through the maze as quickly as I could.


Inside the maze, I saw my sister, Dr. Queena, and MM. Dr. Queena Lee-Chua told me that she already parked her car, so once I was done with the maze, she could give us a ride home. Unfortunately, she sort of disappeared into thin air, leaving me to drive her car.


On the way home, I remembered that I had to meet up with Nix in his house at a certain time and place, so I was rushing against the flow of traffic. Upon reaching his "house", he got mad at me. Nagtampo siya. He told me, "Ganyan nalang lagi. Parati mo nalang akong nakakalimutan. Parat mo nalang akong iniiwan. Lagi nalang MYIPS kasama mo. Late ka nanaman." I was like, "You had no idea wat I had to get through to come here and visit you." He was like, "Whatever." Then he left and entered his house. Ayun.


Then MM and I went looking for him inside his house. We split up to cover more ground. Throughout the whole time we were looking for him I was like, "Putik kang Charlie! Ba't kasi hindi mo naiintindihan?? Why is it that all of a sudden you come shouting at my face without knowing the real story?!" (haha..pati sa panaginip angsty nh?). After some searching, I finally found him.


Weird nga eh. It's like the setting was now in a couple of years in the future tas bahay niya parang office na ewan sa may Makati (parang Condo). He was with his officemates in the conference room in his house. Weird. Anywaaayy...one of his officemates who seemingly looked a lot like someone I know from Block S2 invited me for lunch. He told me that they were planning a surprise birthday party for Nix (which was kinda weird cos the date in my dream was around July-Sept whereas his birthday is on April, ryt?). Ayun. his officemate told me the details and then biglang sumipot si Nix sa table, ready to eat lunch. I told his officemate to write down the details on a piece of paper. Basta.


Tas diba nagalit siya sa akin and I was sort of uncomfy with him? I finally told him over lunch that we needed to talk. He agreed so we went looking for another table area to talk. Funny enough, he seemed short when he stood next to me (parang midget..labo...). We found this table and talked. Ayun. Hindi na siya nagalit sa akin at hindi na ako nagtampo sa kanya. 



At that time, it was getting late. I knew I HAD to be in school for some reason ( I just remembered that my parents were supposed to fetch me in school at around 5pm that day). When I looked at the time, it was already 4:30pm. I had 30 mins to go to school from Nix's house/office. The problem is,  I didn't have any money to commute to school from Ortigas to Katipunan, so I had to RUN all the way. Upon reaching the overpass of Katipunan, I saw my father with a disappointed look on his face. He handed me my ID with a Haouli keychain and an "exam" permit attached to it. Apparently, we were supposed to have this "exam" for InTACT and I missed it--together with Ehmers cos we were at Nix's place. He had this serious look on his face and he told me, "You just lost my trust." With that, he left.



After that, I woke up.



That was certainly one strange dream. I probably had that dream because:

1. We had Math classes yesterday.

2. Bea and Martee had to park Bea's car somewhere.

3. Nagtampo ako kay Nix dahil hindi siya sumipot though he promised the day before that he'd be there.

4. Nandrama si First Friend--nahawa ata kay Twin niya eh..haha

5. I was basically in a crappy mood so I had to dream about something na nakakabadtrip.

Question of the Day:

"Which is worse: To love someone who doesn't love you back or to have someone who loves you but you don't love him back?"


My horoscope says:

"You'll wake up thinking about relationships. If you're currently involved, that's good news for your sweetheart. If not, it's good news for your prospective suitors. Either way, you definitely won't be lonely.

Uh-oh! Jealousy is never a good way to deal with a problem. Take five and calm down.

Being involved with someone who loves us as deeply as we love them is the best thing on the planet -- and you absolutely know that. At the moment, you're so involved, however, you may not be able to tell the difference between what's positive and what's not, relationship-wise. If you're feeling doubtful, remember that your best friend will be more than happy to help straighten all this out for you, and that all you have to do is ask for their advice."

Whatever. I'm in a sort of crappy mood at the moment. Damn. Gah...stupid stupid stupid. RARRRRRRR.
I'm frustrated. I know I am. Stupid stupid stupid.

TTTTTTT_______TTTTTTT


*sob*

Sorry, I had to let it all out. I can't keep on keeping my feelings all bottled up inside. Gah. RAR!!! Stupid YM...I keep on getting disconnected.

It's Been Raining a Lot Lately

It's been raining a lot lately
With tears welling up in my eyes
Trying to hide all the hurt and pain
Afraid to simply break down and cry.

It's been raining a lot lately
Without you by my side
I feel so lost and so alone
With no one left to confide.

It's been raining a lot lately
I couldn't understand why you weren't there
I thought that you'd be there for me
I thought that you'd even care.

It's been raining a whole lot lately
But someday soon the sun would shine
Someday soon you'll come back to me
And everything would just be fine.

-FIN-



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Had MYIPS bonding today after InTACT. It was fun while lasted. As usual, laughtrip talaga ang MYIPS. Who knew the rain could make MYIPS sabaw? haha XD Swear, everyone's sabaw side was showing. Remember Denis the Umbrella Man? hahaha :D Or maybe yet Martee and his *toot* sa may Rizal Library? haha :D Grabe. Fun Fun Fun. Kaso nga lang, may isang tao dyan hindi sumipot...haha ahem ahem. haha joke lang! You know I can't stay mad at ya. Kaw pa ? ;)

If it weren't for Denis, MM, Bea, Ingga, Martee, and Charles, I would've been sad...
If it weren't for Slapjack and the Love Stories, I would've been bored...
If it weren't for the rain, I would've been a lot LOT happier.

I am still in a crappy mood. I'm sorry. I don't feel like blogging.

Chatting with Nixie at the moment. Haven't spoken to her in a LONG time. Grabe, I kinda miss ICA....


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I'm beginning to dislike school. Gah. Ang baba ko sa Fil11 paper : 83/100

Mababa rin ako sa surprise quiz sa ES--pasang-awa. CHOLO!!!! Sabi mo baka walang quiz???!!!!! Then again, sabi mo baka meron. ahahaha :D

NEW BLOG LINK: [ This is where my poetry goes ]

Just had my ACTM interview earlier. Eda and Christa had theirs before me :D
Grabe mga ACTM-ers--they're SOOOO hyper, perky, cheery, and friendly. They're like a total contradiction of those other BoA orgs who seem so formal with the interviews. BTW, today was MM Day. Wala lang. Go figure. Refer to past blog entries.

Anyway, here's some things I've learned about the facts of life in AdMU and beyond:

1. Sometimes you may think that this guy's a total jerk, but then one day you'll realize that you were wrong and that he's a real sweetie. On the otherhand, sometimes you may think that this guy's a total sweetie, but then you'll realize what a total jerk he really is. (haha angsty ba?)

2. You can never go wrong with your blockies and ka-MYIPS. I'm most certainly blessed to have found such great friends in MYIPS and in my blockies. They're the reason why I'm loving every bit of college life.

3.  If you're bored, head out to CTC 101, CTC 118, Rizal Library CompLab, or this CTC CompLab (I forgot what CTC room:D)

4. Manang's is a good place to eat. The food is good and the prices are REAL cheap.

5. College = Stress.
   Stress - Time Management + Family/Friends + God = Happy College Life

6. DO NOT do a lab experiment which involves the use of vinegar. I had lab yesterday and caught a cold. Charlie says that maybe it's because of the vinegar in the experiment. Damn. *sniffle*

7. Table Tennis is fun. *shucks* Why'd I bother with Taekwondo anyway? Which reminds me, we have a blocking test tomorrow!!! YAaaaaahhhhhhh!!! Why wasn't I born a gifted taekwondo-neer??? I need help o_0 Seriously.

8. Freecuts are every student's dream come true. We had free cut today in Lit class. Wheee!!!

9. Your English notebook is your lifeline for English. Lose it and fail the subject. If your notes are written on the handouts, you must transfer them all to your notebook.

10. If you're out there measuring the growth of seeds/seed germination, you most certainly need to get a life.

VOTE WISELY.

VOTE FOR BEA POBLETE.

VOTE FOR STEPH SIA.

VOTE FOR INGGA FALCO.

VOTE FOR NIX QUEJADA.

Mga overachievers talaga ang MYIPS..ahahaha :P

*~*

I trusted you so much

I even thought you'd care

But one day I turned around and realized

That you weren't even there.
......

....You weren't even there,

When I needed you the most.

*editted on 7:24pm*

First and foremost, I'd like to say one thing:

VOTE BEA POBLETE FOR JGSOM EXEC

Top 5 reasons why you should vote for Bea Pob:
1. She's a great friend (Basta ikaw, basta MYIPS...) at laughtrip tong makasama
2. She's responsible, trustworthy, tsaka smart! Naks!
3. Not only is she smart, but also she's a partygirl. She likes to party*sings the AXE song haha*. If there's any rocking event present, expect to find Bea in there (haha)
4. She's a superstar (and MYIPS's very own event organizer) so VOTE FOR HER
5. Just like Rexona, she won't let you down.

P.S. She's also Partido Agila's (the ONLY accredited party..basta the leading party) candidate. That means she's GOOD. Kaya vote wisely. Vote for Bea Poblete.

Again, VOTE BEA POBLETE FOR JGSOM EXEC!

To Block S2(?) Managment Information Systems, don't forget to vote for Nix Quejada as your block rep.

To Block R4 Communications Technology Management, don't forget to vote for Ingga Falco as your block rep.

Naks naman, MYIPS. Mga overachievers. Ahahahaha :D
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I just had my AMA interview today. The one who interviewed me was this VP of Finance--I think. Basta, he has glasses and he kinda looks intellectual. Funny nga niya eh. haha. He then formally welcomed me into the Ateneo Management Assosciation. Yay! ahahahaha

I sure hope I'll enjoy my stay in the AMA org.

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Horoscope for the Day:

"That romantic roll you're on isn't going anywhere just yet, which is just the way you like it. The good news is that the person you're sighing over is on the same page -- and there isn't any bad news.

Haha talaga? Am I *sigh*-ing over someone at the moment? Hmmm.....ahahaha bakit ba puro about love horoscope ko? haha Do I seriously need a lovelife at this point??? haha :D at least walang bad news. :D Life is good. Thanks to you. You know who you are;)

So you're not president of anything. You should still check on your people skills.

Okay. haha onga, college na...I'm no longer president nga of anything...:P I don't have dreams at the mo to run for Sanggu. Who knows? Only time will tell... 
Your sign is in charge of creature comforts -- from pillows to chocolate to fine wine and sweet music. In a nutshell, you appreciate quality, so much so that it's tough for you to refrain from being obviously bored when you're not around it -- and that's just when it comes to things. When a rare and extraordinary person comes along, getting to know them better isn't just an option. It's a necessity. Well, guess what? One of those rare opportunities is en route. Dress appropriately. "

Rare extraordinary person? Sino kaya un? And what do you mean that that rare extraordinary person will come along my way? haha:D *curious* Dress up??? That's not me--unless kung paryt or big social event. ahahaha :P

--END OF HOROSCOPE--

WARNING: TAGLISH ENTRY


Yep. Inside joke iyan nina *bleep toot* and *toot bleep*. I don't know what's up with those two. I guess they enjoy messing around with my head. haha. Is ICA really "exclusive"? Di naman noh. And I most certainly think that being "exclusive" doesn't necessarily mean that all "we" ever think about is boys, shopping, and well, being "exclusive". Tingnan niyo naman. Pati na rin si Kamaira nadamay sa usapan niyong dalawa. haha :D It doesn't hurt naman to have guy friends. I mean, both of you guys are guys--right? ahahaha:D Sometimes I just wished I could understand the mind of a guy. Kanina pa silang dalawang nagcocode in guy-speak. Haiz..haha

Ehrm..yeah so..what exactly did I do today? I'm pretty sure no one is interested in knowing, but who cares? haha THIS IS MY BLOG. Live with it and love it. ahahaha ;) Actually, nothing special naman has happened so far. Ehrm, yeah. Basta...

Upon reaching ADMU, I went to visit my baby plant at the Sec C Thrid Floor. *cringes guiltily* I haven't watered her for days! Ehrm..so yeah. I visited her, watered her and stuff..Oh, and I also watered oter people's plants. I was in such a good mood (compared to last weekend--uhm, alam ng dalawang tao yun kung bakit...ahahaha Thanks ulit at sorry kung makulit ako:D) that's why I decided to water Cholo's, Karissa's. mine, Ian's and Charlie's plants (note: Charlie, buhay pa ata plant mo eh. may hope pa sya...) . Yep. I was a happy person. See what happens when I'm happy??? Nagiging super bait ako. ahahaha ;) Wala lang. I'm just so happy happy happy. :D Sorry nalang kay paradoxical-theory-girl na napunta sa iyo ung pagkasober ko. ahaha :D

Life is good--so far.

Damn. ES na tomorrow. I am sooooo reluctant for Lab. haha I dunno..I've never loved LAB. I just enjoy the tambay sessions with most of my ES classmates no matter how crazy they may be (R3!! MYIPS!!! Taekwondo buddies!!! Plant Neighbor buddies!!! High school buddies!!!! ahahahaha). Which brings me to why I enjoy ES lectures better. haha :D Mas masaya at magulo kung nakaupo ka lang sa may likod ng klase--basta wag lang sa harap at malapit kay Sir. ehehehehe:P


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I know who *bleep* likes..ahahaha :P *wink wink*


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You know what's so fun about reading horscopes? It's the anticipation of whether magkakatotoo yung horoscope mo for the day. haha..Unfortunately for me, wala pang nagyayari. It doesn't hurt to dream..haha

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I had the weirdest dream EVER.

I dreamt that I was supposed to be meeting *bleep* in the caf at around 7:30am. Tas I went to school around 6am. Nakita ko sila *toot* tas sabi nila sa akin, "Uy, tara, kain muna tayo sa McDo! Maaga pa bago class natin eh." It was drizzling then but I didn't care. Eh di ayun. I went with *toot* and friends (mga block r3), forgetting about meeting up with *bleep*. Tas for some strange reason, *bleep* was in my english class (huh????) then he wanted to talk to me, but I was too busy for him--I was talking to Ingga ata. Yun. I completely ignored him. Tas when I went to the caf, I saw *bleep* sitting in the caf all by himself. Tas I think he was crying or something...basta super hurt ung look sa face niya. I was wondering what was up with him--ba't parang hindi siya yung usual self niya?? I looked at my watch. It was around 8am na ata. I remembered what I forgot to do. I forgot to meet him in the caf at 7:30am. I was like, "*bleep*! I'm soooo sorry I forgot." Tas super hurt pa ng face niya. I tried consoling him pero ewan...he just had this hurt look on his face. At that point, para siyang maliit na bata na nasaktan.

Ayun. I woke up feeling dazed. What was that all about? Tsaka ba't sa lahat ng mga taong nakakasama ko, ba't parati si *bleep* and si *toot* nandun sa mga panaginip ko??? Ang labo naman nyan. Tsaka AS IF naman iignore ko lang siya??? I don't think I'm THAT mean...ahahahaha.  Tsaka why would I forget a friend who's helped me pull things through?

Yun lang. Weird dream moment. Another chapter of my weird *bleep* and *toot* dreams...

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O ayun. Loveless, crushless pa rin ako. ahaha :D wala talaga akong mahanap na tao na pwedeng maging crush ko eh--kahit temporary man lang. Siguro kasi halos lahat na lalaking kaibigan ko, turing ko parang kapatid na ewan. I've never had a big bro so, ayun. ahahaha:P

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MYIPS: ayusin nyo naman yung mga sched nyo (found sa MYIPS groups). ahaha Ingga just fixed our schedules up. Cute nga eh. fill in the details nga! ahahaha :P

MM, go na...spill.....

I'm dying in here. Haha Kaw kasi eh. Bat mo nabring-up yung topic? Tuloy, naging curious na ako. Di ko nga yun inisip dati eh, pero you're forcing me to become CURIOUS. Sino nga ba yung gusto ni *toot*?? haha Grr...ROAR. RAR. Ayoko na MM. You're killing me. So what kung pinatay ka ni *toot*? haha jk jk :D Kaw kasi eh..kaya tuloy, naintriga pa ako. whaha :D

My Horoscope for the Day:

"Ready to fall in love? Or back in love? You'd better be. Someone you adore -- someone who's so close to you that your antennae have just got to be twitching like crazy -- is thinking along those same lines.

Keep your eyes out for a little love token. Somebody wants to tell you something!

I'm still in a semi-depressed mood. I don't think anyone but this certain person can understand what I'm going through at this very moment. Maybe it's because not many people can relate to my situation. Heck, that person is probably the only one I know who can relate to me. I just wanna thank you for listening to my prob. Thanks.