It's a weekend--so why am I not exactly celerating? Maybe it could be for the fact that I have to start studying for my upcoming LTs and Midterms. Maybe it's because I got tired from yesterday's shindig. Maybe, just maybe, I'm feeling restless. I feel like I'm just waiting for time to pass me by.

Here's a rundown on what happened to me during the week:
-Monday: NO CLASSES! HURRAH!!
-Tuesday: crazed and fun morning with Nix, MM, and Maika. Tried to study Math. Worrywart during the afternoon. Had my Taekwondo test right after. Rar. Paw's birthday!! Alabyu Paw!
-Wednesday: watched Nix, Cholo, Lean, and Jeff play basketball whilst studying for Math. Damn. I lost my pencil case. I remember putting it in my bag, but then when I went home, it was...gone. Has anyone seen my pencil case? The glittery shimmery baby blue one with a nifty beaded baby blue cross keychain? =(
-Thursday: Thursday was great. Sam made my day with his banana/donut performance (ES inside joke). He's so corny--swear. =)
-Friday: Block bonding at the ISO before INTACT. Got nominated for Ignatius Idol (izzat what you call it, blockies?). Ian asked me read his "novel" that's currently in the works. It's pretty good with an interesting cast of characters and storyline. ACTM Shindig. Popcorn and Pizzas with Ingga (GA buddy!! haha). At least it was better and more fun than the AMA GA. Got tired from the Shindig. harhar.

OMG. I thought they were kidding when they said that my face and a couple of my friends' faces were on the AdMU Comelec First Year Council (FYC) Sanngunian Elections posters spread around the campus. OMG. That's my face on the posters!! haha :D And there was Jeff's face, Tommy's face, Lysch's face, Kamae's face, Charles' face, Nat's face (and most of my other blockies) on the posters, too! haha :P

There you go again, Angela, with your constant whining on your depression. You have no reason to feel depressed whatsoever.

Yeah, boy am I talking to myself---again.

I try to assure myself that nothing's wrong, and that life can be as perfect as it can be. It's true. I have almost everything I need and want in life. The problem is, I'm not having a problem because of my problems--I'm having a problem because of someone else's problems. *sigh* I just can't stand seeing a good friend of mine hurt, depressed or bothered. It just, well, bothers me.

Am I abnormal? Am I supposed to feel happy because life seems so peachy? I know I'm supposed to feel happy, but somehow, I'm only half-hearted happy. =( I know that my friends' problems are not directly my problems, but somehow, because of my empathy, I wanna do something to help, to ease the pain. If only you guys know how hard it is for me to see a good friend in pain. It's really hard, it's REALLY REALLY HARD. I feel so small, so insignificant, so helpless. I wanna help ease the pain, but I don't know how. Argh. I just hate this feeling SO MUCH. Damn. This feeling sucks real bad. =( It just saddens me to think that I can't really do much to help. Argh!!! It's quite pointless to feel so frustrated, so why am I frustrated?? *sigh*

Life is perfect, yet somehow I feel emptiness inside. (oh, the drama)

Exactly one week ago in the girl's CR:




The boys, finally showing their feminine side. Harhar. XD MM's not in the pic--nasa cubicle somewhere out there. :P

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I've been so busy over the weekend, so I was sort of glad that I had a YM conference with slightly less than half of my dysfunctional/crazed AdMU family. It was relieving…really. I mean, I'm still grinning from ear to ear with the conversations I had with Papa C and Sis M. har har (Pare, I am your father).

So what's the deal with me lately?

We went mall-ing yesterday and went to Comic Alley. My sister bought a Naruto/Sasuke mouse pad (which I'm using right now). I saw this really cool Naruto keychain which I wanted to buy. It's sooo cool--promise.  I'm still thinking whether I should buy it or not. I'll probably have a decision by Sunday. Hopefully, the nifty keychain would still be there. ^_-

 I had  the lens of my eyeglass fixed yesterday. My eyeglass lens got scratched from one of the OrSem GDs last June, but I haven't found the time to fix it-til now. It's been one whole year since I last visited my ophthalmologist. Heck, I recently found out that eyeglass lens do have brand types (I thought brands/types were for eyeglass frames only. Sheesh. Talk about being so oblivious and it's been more than a year since I've had this pair of eyeglasses). I found out that the type of lens I had on my glasses were called NIX 1.5. If only you could imagine how I was laughing my head off deep down inside. It seems like wherever I go, I always see Bro's name. Harhar. I am being haunted by his name. Kidding. Peace out, bro!

I'm finally done with my ES10 and ES12 reports. I'm done with my Fil11 report, but it still needs work. I'm not yet done with my Lit13 paper-I have to revise it and possibly have it checked again.

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After reading Margie's blog, I thought for a moment and kinda agreed with her on the type of friends we have. Here is my version on how friends are categorized:

First, we have the FAIR-WEATHERED FRIENDS. These are your friends who are always around you whenever life is good, and would leave you when times get tough. There are lots of fair-weathered friends out there. Those people who take advantage of you and leave you hurt in the end-that's them all right! Fair-weathered friends are those who always ask favors from you, but when you ask them for favors, they pretend not to know you at all. In short, fair-weathered friends are users. I tell ya, there's a whole bunch of them out there!

Second, we have the FILLER FRIENDS. I kinda agree that most of my blockmates would fall under this category and so do my other acquaintances. Filler Friends are the friends you hang out with when you don't want to look like a loner. You don't have much things in common, yet you sort of have bonds with these people. When you're all alone with no friend in sight and suddenly you spot one of your blockmates, even if you're not that close with that person (maybe a mere acquaintance), you'd end up hanging out with that person until a good friend of your arrives. Filler friends are always there. After all, no one is an island. No one can deny not having a Filler Friend. There's always a Filler Friend, somewhere out there.

Third, we have the COMMON FRIENDS. These are the friends whom you share some things in common. They may either be your English/Math/NatSci buddies, Org buddies, Varsity buddies, Convention buddies, Online buddies, Schoolmates, etcetera. Common Friends are the type of friends you have bonded with over a short period of time, primarily because, well, you do have something in common. They're fun to hang out with and all that, but the problem is, once you're no longer classmates with them, the relationship sort of deteriorates, and the bond you've once shared would then disappear. That's the sad fact about common friends. Most of them have expiration dates. When you no longer have the same classes, go to the same school, or have the same org as your Common Friends, these friends then become detached…they become merely acquaintances in the end. If you're lucky though, a friendship with a Common Friend could grow deeper, which would then lead us to the fourth type of friend.

Fourth, we have the CLOSE FRIENDS. These guys and gals are not really your Common Friends, and neither are they our best friends. I can say that most of my good friends belong in here. To be frank, I've never had a best friend. I've always had several close friends, but never a BEST. Your barkada, best friend (for some), and people whom you have a strong bond with can be classified into this category. Close Friends are awesome. They make you feel special and loved. They accept you for who you are, and never judge you according to your achievements. They're always there when you need someone to talk or listen to. They're there to give you a shoulder to cry on. They're there to laugh with you, they're there to cry with you. Close friends make the world a brighter place to live in. They bring joy into your life. With close friends, the relationship is always two-sided. There's always give-and-take, a win-win situation for both. That's why if you think you belong to this category, I wanna let you know that I LOVE YOU!

Last but not the least, we have the CONFIDANTE. Boy, are you lucky if ever you have one in your life. If you don't, I feel sorry for you. A confidante could come in the form of a best friend or a close friend-slash-diary-slash-psychiatrist. This category is exclusive. Not many people are confidantes in a person's life. Usually, friends who make the cut number around one minimum to 5 maximum. Usually. Anyway, a confidante is someone whom you trust so completely…someone whom you trust with your life. You know very well that your secrets would be safe with your confidante friend. A Confidante possesses the qualities of a close friend, but your relationship with that person grows even deeper (like, more than 10 times the relationship of that of a regular close friend). A Confidante is someone whom you can truly count on. It's difficult to explain what kind of relationship you have with a confidante friend. After all, it goes beyond words. The silence may speak for the words left unspoken. There's that bond with that person that you can't seem to explain.  I'm lucky and blessed to have found a couple of confidantes in my life.  You guys know who you are. I love you guys and I miss you soooo much! =)

If most of your friends fall under category 4 or 5, then you're one lucky duck. If not, then maybe you'd have to start choosing your friends wisely.

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Gah!!! I still haven't read "The Da Vinci Code" and "Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince"!!! Both books are just collecting dusts at home...*sigh* Curse ya blasted HW!

I haven't felt this good since well...the start of my college life. I dunno..I just feel happy. Maybe it's because my week started out right. Maybe all I needed was my weekly dosage of sabaw. haha :P (tama ka, MM, SABAW week nga toh). It's definitely a relief to laugh at the "littlest and stupidest" things in comparison to feeling so damn depressed for the past weeks. Cheers to my sabaw buddies! Bro and Sis, sa Tuesday ulit ah--same time, same place :D

Anyway, there's this A.M.A. shindig tonight. I'm going (but where is INGGA??). *sigh* I dunno..parang nakakatamad na rin pumunta eh, but I promised Bobby that I'd go.

Too lazy to blog on a weekend. Today's a Friday. Damn. I have so much stuff to do: ES lab report, Filipino reaction paper, Lit paper...*sigh* Who knew college could be so draining?
These days, YM is probably my only gateway to having a social life--just ask my pathetic sabaw friends (you guys ROCK! Alabyu!). Whatever. I'm too lazy to blog. I'm dead serious.

I don't wanna go to the Management GA.....

Horoscope for the day:
"If you're feeling it now, you'll show it -- and not quietly, either. No, if it's on your mind or in your heart, it will be quite obvious to the world, not to mention the person closest to you.

First thing this morning, you really ought to decide what to give them -- 'them' being your sweetheart, best friend or whoever it is who's been putting up with you lately, no matter what you've dished out. You know it hasn't been easy, you know what they'd like and you know they deserve it. Be nice. Your feelings are going to be obvious anyway. Might as well be sure it's the good ones they remember."

Condolence to Charles' grandma who passed away last night at 11:45pm. Our prayers weren't enough to keep God from taking her back into His fold. Heaven must be missing an angel. =( May her soul rest in peace. Charles, alam mo naman na nandito kami para sa iyo if you need any emotional support whatsoever. I will continue to pray for you and your family, that you'll be able to pull it through. Mahirap talaga mawalan ng taong minamahal mo sa buhay. *hugz*

Yes, this is my THIRD blog entry for the day. I'm in the CTC Complab and apparently someone has vandalized the mouse that I'm using (someone wrote the letters MIS on it). Ang pathetic ko. I think I caught the pathetic bug from two of my dearest friends (hem hem yung dalawang kasama ko sa sabaw session last tuesday..). haha kidding :D But seriously, we're having a freecut for Filipino class today, so here I am writing this blog entry whilst trying to do my Filipino reaction paper for Entablado's "Palapalapag".

I'm done voting for Sanggu. I'm not telling a single soul whom I voted for. Yes, not even YOU. haha :D Seriously. I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. I voted for whom I think was best for the various JGSOm positions (and no, I did not abstain). Who did I vote for? Well, that's my secret.

Here I am standing right next to you
With oblivion surrounding us
Silence seems to be a dear old friend
As we walk through without much fuss.

I can sense something's troubling you
I know you're hurting deep down inside
I feel so helpless but I want you to know
Here I am always, by your side.

Here are my lips to cheer you up
When you need someone to talk to
Here are my arms to give you warmth
To soothe and to comfort you.

Here are my eyes to cry with you
To show you how much I care
Here are my hands to wipe your tears
And have your burden's share.

Here is my smile to brighten your day
When things could possibly go wrong
Here are my feet to walk with you
At times when you feel alone.

Here are my ears to listen to
Your fears and problems day to day
But here I can't give you my heart
You took it the moment you said, "Hey".


The ending sucks. I couldn't do anything about it. har har

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Today is the start of the SANGGU Elections. Please VOTE!

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VOTE TIN CHUA FOR Y BLOCK REP!

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VOTE STEPHANIE SIA FOR R2 BLOCK REP!
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VOTE NIX QUEJADA FOR S2 BLOCK REP!

COURSE AND ENG BLOCKIES RUNNING FOR BLOCK REPS:
VOTE SANDRA SORIANO FOR D3 BLOCK REP!
VOTE JESSA CRUZ FOR H1 BLOCK REP!
VOTE KAMAE DE JESUS FOR R3 BLOCK REP!
VOTE ANA ENERIO FOR Y2 BLOCK REP!

Whew..haha ang dami nila. Imagine what my life would be if ever these guys do win their desired positions in the Sanggu?! haha

haha MM, ung song na parating nasa status message mo sa YM nastuck tuloy sa head ko. haha :D

I decided to post something. I was inspired by one of MM's old blog entries (and she was inspired by Maika's old blog entry haha). Anyway, here it goes:

-If you call me, ANGELA, you are one of my acquaintances or just one of my friends or teachers who prefer to use my full name.

-If you call me ELIZA, you are Ms. Arejola, my 3rd year English teacher.

-If you call me A.L., you are one of my ICA and/or AdMU buddies.

-If you call me L.A., you are lost of confused about my name.

-If you call me ANGELA ELIZA, you are Kamaira Joyce/Maika/Maikkers.

-If you call me ANGELAANGELAANGELA/ANGEL/MILADY/ATE/YAYA, you are Nix/Nicco/Charlie/Milord/Kuya/Manong/Jean.

-If you call me ALLIE, you are one of my internet friends.

-If you call me ATE A.L., you are either Jeff/Jepoy, Ian/Balucs, or Jon/Gianpaolo.

-If you call me ACHI A.L., you are Charles/Cash.

-If you call me ALLIEBOO/SARUMAN, you are Cesca/Gandalf.

-If you sometimes call me SIS, you are Denis/FirstFriend.

-If you call me GAGA/LECHE/ULUL, you are MM/EhmEhm/Ehmers

-If you call me AH-EL, you are either Mich or Mary.

-If you call me PRECIOUS, you are one of my relatives or nursery friends.

-If you call me AL, you're too lazy to pronounce my name with two syllables.

-If you call me A.N.A., you are Kri-Kri/Kristine.

-If you call me ACHI NI ANGE, you are one of my shobe's classmates or friends.

-If you call me ANJ, you're too lazy to continue the "GELA".

-If you call me GELAI, you are Ruth back in sixth grade.

-If you call me HEY, it could either mean two things:
1. You're too lazy to say my name
2. You know me by face but don't know my name.


**
Am in the CTC complab. A funny thing happened today. Someone was sitting on one of the plastic benches inside the complab and she fell off the bench (the bench toppled overher). After that, almost everyone came rushing to her to see if she was alright. I smiled. Har har.I know I shouldn't have. It was a mean thing. I sure wouldn't want to be in her place.

Damn. My fingers are practically frozen--I can't seem to type properly. Ang lamig ng aircon dito sa ctc. haha

As rain falls from the heavens above
I feel a stir of emotions
Wondering if what I'm feeling is love
Intoxicated with the aroma of love potions


I've been so confused lately
I felt like I was walking blind
Should I listen to what my heart tells me
Or should I find reason from my mind?


After much soul-searching
The answer lay straight ahead
I've thought things over and realized
That I don't want our friendship to end


It felt really stupid
To fall in love with you
But I guess I couldn't help it
Because you've always been so true.


Our friendship means so much to me
I wouldn't do anything to harm it
Even if it means hiding my feelings from you
Hiding every single bit.


So here I am declaring
To everyone around me
That I'm so lucky to have
found a friend so trustworthy


Who cares about love and romance
When what matters is that you're there
What I really value most
Is when you show me your love and care.


I'm setting all my feelings aside
Wishing to start things over
Now I know how I feel 'bout you
I need a friend, not a lover.


So here I am writing this poem
Thanking you for being such a great friend
Hoping that you'll still be someone
I can treasure 'til the end.